jeg elsker dig

i got another tattoo today. i have been thinking about it for a while, but it took this long to get around to getting it done for a couple of reasons. first, coz it just diid. and also because daniel and i had a bit of a difference of opinion as to my punctuation ;P he was, of course, wrong. i also wanted him to like the font i chose for the text and all of the previous ones i’d shown him didn’t tickle his fancy much.

he doesn’t like intentional ignorance of conventions such as capital letters. in certain situations, i do, and actually think it looks nicer with all lowercase. he claimed that since my intended tattoo was a ‘sentence’, it should have a capital letter. i countered this by saying that it wasn’t a sentence as such, more a floating fragment that was not part of any formal block of prose and therefore not subject to the standard rules. i think he still believes that he is right, but once i found a font that he didn’t mind, he was willing to overlook my flagrant disregard of proper punctuation. (i don’t have a full stop, either!)

this tattoo is, in a way, a lot more personal to me than the first. the first one is basically just a celtic type design that i really liked. and there is a meaning to it but the meaning that i see in it is not necessarily what the design traditionally represents and not necessarily what the person who published the tattoo flash intended it to mean either. i see it as representing the cycle of existence, the interconnectedness of everything and everyone. i saw a quote once but i can’t seem to find out where it originated, it simply said everything is connected to everything else.

jeg elsker dig
jeg elsker dig

jeg elsker dig is danish. there are lots of pages on the internet listing how to say it in lots and lots of languages: je t’aime, ti amo, ich liebe dich, ik hou van jou… i love you. obviously my choice is primarily because daniel is danish, but that is not all there is to it. i very much wanted something that represented him and our children but i am not into name tattoos. some people get birthdates, or co-ordinates, but to do that for each of them would start to get bigger than i wanted. i had already decided that so i was balanced, this one should be on the inside of my right ankle, since the first one is on the inside of the left wrist.

so in trying to figure out what to do, i came back to why i wanted to have something representing them on my body. (something other than the stretch marks, anyway :P) because i love them and they are what is most important in my life. and what simpler way to represent that than simply saying ‘i love you’? but it still wasn’t quite right, because anyone can say that and read it and it is meant to be something specific to those people, and that’s how i came upon having it done in danish. also i want it to be a little bit mysterious and magical.. and there are not a lot of people around here who can read danish.

being danish is part of daniel. not only was he born there but he comes from a culture with a long and rich history that has influenced many aspects of our modern world. despite their generally inaccurate and highly cliched reputation, viking explorers went further than anyone else in the same era and that is to be admired. my children are a part of that heritage, having inherited it from daniel. i may share the same name but it is not part of my blood in the same way that it is part of theirs.. but now it is, in a little way, a part of my body.

it sort of relates back to the way i see my first tattoo. not only do i love daniel, stephanie, abigail and kristian but i love all that came before them and all that will follow after them, because it is all part of .. everything, just as i am. i like that it is both a simple statement about my favourite people and a more profound statement about how i see us all as being part of something bigger.

jeg elsker dig


yesterday on the way home after picking kristian up from kinder, he and Abby were chatting and I was sort of chatting, sort of not, since I was driving.
then he made an announcement. “i can’t move my penis.”
is there something wrong with my ears? “what?”
very calmly, “i can’t move my penis.”
uhh.. “um.. well you don’t really need to move it right now do you?” i glanced in my little mirror to see what kind of expression he had.
he seemed to think about it for a moment and then shook his head and grinned and then they moved on to a totally different topic, as if that had not been an incredibly weird conversation.

on tuesday I had to take my grandmother to dora’s mcdonalds so that my auntie could meet us there and take here the rest of the way home after she stayed at the weekend to look after the kids while I took my mum to the hospital. the car was a little bit messy but I didn’t tidy it up. I did that on purpose. a bit of rebellion. I also had the cd player going on my standard cd that has a bunch of mp3s on it. it generally plays through in order and happened to be near the start, on alanis. briefly I wondered whether or not I should skip ahead or turn it off, because I don’t have the clean radio edits. but I was apparently having a very provocative day because I left it to play through at least two songs that had words I would not generally use in conversation with my grandmother. it felt quite invigorating.. to not do what I thought would be expected or ‘appropriate’. maybe next time I’ll even go one better and borrow some of daniel’s kevin bloody wilson or weird al songs. those would be really shocking. haha.
but at nearly 30 i think I should be able to not change things about myself just because a grandparent is around. so I was pleased with myself, because that kind of thing does not always come easily to me.

speaking of nearly 30, i’ve been giving serious thought to getting myself a tattoo for my birthday. it’s something that I have wanted to do for a long time but I didn’t know if I was brave enough. I think I might be, now. I think it will probably be something kind of Celtic style, and I am leaning towards having it on my inner wrist. if you know any good places with tattoo designs, tell me the url!